who the heck knows anything, anyway

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

past few weeks recap

Recently, I:

--watched Prometheus, and it was amazing. If you watch it and have no idea why I feel this way, ask me. I don't want to be spoily.

--finished a work project.

--survived finals week.

--took on another freelance project. It's a horror monologue! Looking forward to channeling a little Poe. This is my first project for stage, too. A little intimidating, but it's the kind of challenge that gets me excited!

--started reading The Brothers Karamazov. Dostoyevsky is, sigh, wonderful. 

--began working out 3x a week (consistently!)

--moped about a little.

--haven't drawn enough.

Other things:

Work and I have a complicated relationship. When I'm overloaded with school and contract deadlines, I can't wait to be done, can't wait to take a break. Once I finish and have a few minutes to breathe, I'm bored. So I jump right in to the next project, because the alternative is wasting hours refreshing pinterest and twitter while dissatisfaction pokes me in the stomach repeatedly.

I am not the biggest fan of living in limbo. It's an uncomfortable place, full of self-doubt; breeding grounds of the nebulous "unknown" that prompts feelings of helpless rather than excitement. Looking forward to Christmas when things should settle a little.

I might go climbing tomorrow. I haven't been climbing in a long time, and I miss it.

I've been feeling very anti-social. I'm kind of ok with it. Life stress has brought me back to reading as a method of coping, and I'm looking forward to spending ALL DAY Thursday with my face all up in The Brothers Karamazov. It's my book day. I'm proclaiming it now so I have dibs. Dibs on myself.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

we get by with a little help from our friends

Life is terrible and wonderful all at once, every minute, and I find it confusing and difficult to handle sometimes.

Gonzo, I need your existential guidance. Let's split a cigarette on the front porch and think about space and belonging, and then we can go back inside and be funny blue whatevers and no one will be the wiser.